What we think, we become

Its been a long time since I wrote any blog. Many changes in my life in this gap. Think its time to resume my blog writing. Its always gud to write down what we feel. It feels gud when we read these at a later point of time.. I am back ;) All is well!!!

I used to wonder how two strangers can get married and lead an understanding life.. Its so strange.. I too had to meet a stranger and accept to live a life with him. How will it be if the person does not match our character? How will it be if the person's taste does not match our's? How will it be if the person is not able to get along with us? How will it be if the person does not meet our expectations (corporate term :) )? These questions made me feel that I should not go for marriage unless i gain confidence on these would not happen. Next question that crossed my mind is that, how long will it take for me to gain confidence? Day came when someone came to see me with his family. I had to tell people if I like him or not. I was not given even few minutes to relax and think. I had to judge him only by his physical appearance. Is it good to judge a person with how he looks from outside? Is it the right way to judge a person? Afterall, its two people's life. I was n...

Its easy to advice not to expect but very difficult to follow in reality. We all feel and say expectation hurts. Still, we do keep expecting from people around us. Expecting kind words when we are not fine, expecting company when alone, expecting affection when we are in need, expecting recognition for the efforts, expecting success for the hard work and so on.. Are these expectations bad? Not really. It depends on where, how, when and from whom the expectation is. Expecting right thing from the right person at the right time in the right way is acceptable and will not hurt us. If we get hurt still, then it means one or more of these params is wrong and need to be corrected. Expect the right thing from the right person at the right tim e in the right way.. Simple :) We tend to forget all these rights when we feel we have rights on someone.. Afterall, we are humans.. I re-iterate.. Its easy to advice not to expect but very difficult to follow in reality.. Very true :( A...

Tis day!! It was only me and my music!! After a long time... We need a companion when we are left all alone. There was a time when I used to share things only with my music. Later, I got people that I did not need my music to listen to me and help me. Now, back to pavilion. Its only me and my music. Not sure if what's happening is for good or bad. Not sure if I can be fine with this. Not sure if I have to be like this from now on. But, my music was my only companion after a long time. Happy that I still have my music with me. I am now, where I started... Donno if I need to be like :) or :(... Confused... All Is Well!!!

There is a song in the movie "3 Idiots" - Give me some sunshine... It has these lines, Give me some sunshine Give me some rain Give me another chance I wanna grow up once again This song is so close to my heart. I do want another chance to grow up once again.. I do want my childhood back so that I can correct watever mistakes I have done, to try and achieve watever I could not coz of my mistakes, to hold the relationships I have lost, to erase all hard moments, to recreate all pleasant moments and so on... How would it be if we all get another chance to grow up once again?? Will it not be great?? But in reality we will not get another chance to grow up.. Its important that we learn from our mistakes and correct them atleast from now on and not to make any as far as possible and lead a great life where none is hurt.. Neither we nor people around us... Fact is, Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara... All Is Well!!!

Like everyone, I too have dreams.. Its very important that we dream.. Atleast to visualize things virtually.. To list a few of mine, being in my mom's lap for long and none wakes me up, shoulder ride and a forehead kiss from my dad, fighting and compromising with my brother, a lengthy walk with my brother which makes me feel that he is with me and asks me to go ahead and do what I want, hand-held conversation with my sister which makes me feel that I have someone with whom I can share things openly, really really long bike ride with my guy when it drizzles, a shoulder to lay on when I badly need someone, sweet walk with my kid with the most innocent conversation in the world, lot of smiles of loved ones around me, able to earn a good name in music and really achieve something in music field, travel to onsite, me and my music alone for a while on a rainy day, a real true hug from a friend when I need it, a hand to hold when I am afraid or nervous or when I feel insecure, watching m...